ryan's space

did you know gurl~~~ (ew ew ew)

2009-10-06T08:22:00.000-07:00

That attachment has caused my interaction with this machine called a computer to be kept at an absolute minimum. however many things have occurred these past few weeks. more good than bad so who am i to complain. blogging isn't as easy as it seems when u have almost close to nothing to talk about other than work. imagine blogging about army life, about the same concept.

What's new.

1) i've made sushi

2) i'm getting a holga with rach this fri (zomg can't wait seriously)

3) i'm getting my pay at the end of the attachment. =.=

4) i'm going for elaine's party and i still don't know much stuff bout it. must plan i think. LOL

5) i have a laundry list of things we need to do. should blog about the list or sth. ok maybe not.

6) i've a weird timetable.

What's NOT new.

1) i'm still having a crap time at work

2) i'm not any darker/tanner. i think i got paler. =.=

3) interaction with people is kept to almost zero. ALMOST, thank goodness not totally.

~~PART TWO OF THIS POST WILL BE UP 2ml! PROMISE! :D~~

titles are hard to think of.

2009-09-23T19:20:00.000-07:00

i've got sunshine on a cloudy day

when it's cold outside, i've got the month of May

well i guess, you would say

what can make me feel this way?

well..

this song just popped out in my head while i was doing...tax. cos it's darn cold in the office, with the rain and all. ah well~ accounting is getting to my head. choosing timetable 2ml! :D

uh oh

2009-09-21T20:29:00.000-07:00

the sickening gut feeling is back. =.=

2009-09-21T07:19:00.001-07:00

it's almost all out of my hands now. just one more step thru the darkness and there will be light at the end of this tunnel. everything will be clear.

2009-09-20T07:47:00.000-07:00

sometimes i don't know what to do. really don't. so all i can do is take it in and charge straight through. HUZZAH!

still not used to wordpress

2009-09-19T18:01:00.000-07:00

so i've decided to stick with bs for a while, till i fully understand how to freaking use wordpress.

anyway's its a long weekend for me, with mon being a public holiday. the only holiday that falls during my attachment. =/ but its okay. still got many stuff to keep me occupied with. honestly i still do not know what to do on mon but thats like a secondary issue. anybody free? :D

i'm already thinking of what i want to use my working allowance to shop for. clothes, IT stuff or juz food.

i think i'm feeling ALOT better these few days. smiling alot and laughing alot. playing bowling, folding cranes and receipts are really interesting yet fun ways to relieve stress. for those that are under stress. try it. :P

ok this is going to be under random posts 101 by ryan.

2009-09-16T18:10:00.000-07:00

i woke up this morning with and the first thing that came to my mind was that today would be a great day. weird, but hopefully true.

btw i'm moving to wordpress, you can find me at shuffledrhapsody.wordpress.com

peace.

2009-09-16T07:41:00.000-07:00

one haha too many my friend. one haha too many.

2009-09-15T20:20:00.000-07:00

all this reminds me of the damned cheer you up shirt. you hate it and try not to think about it but it is all around you. like a constant reminder, like a blister that won't go away, like a paper cut.

Something Really Stupid.

2009-09-15T06:12:00.000-07:00

had to take my temperature hourly to observe its fluctuations. at 2040 , using the thermometer our school kindly gave to us, i placed the thermometer in my mouth. this was what the readings were as it took my temperature...

Lo.

35.0

37.3

38.5

39.7 (my eyes really grew bigger at this point)

40.8

41.4

42.5

Hi.

thank goodness it was the thermometer that was spoilt. i would freak if it were true. lol.

2009-09-15T02:13:00.000-07:00

if everything goes according to plan SOMEONE is going to create for me a wordpress account. this is good, becos that would mean you guys won't be able to read most of the stupid stuff i write in this blog. muahaha. peace.

2009-09-15T01:48:00.000-07:00

we all have a past that we do not want to repeat, true? true.

but it does seem appealing at times, when the past felt good...in the past.

my only wish is that my conscience allows me to pull back

that is all

The Things We Do For Love - 10 CC

2009-09-14T08:43:00.000-07:00

Too many broken hearts have fallen in the river

Too many lonely souls have drifted out to sea

You lay your bets and then you pay the price

The things we do for love, the things we do for love

Communication is the problem to the answer

You've got her number and your hand is on the phone

The weather's turned and all the lines are down

The things we do for love, the things we do for love

Like walking in the rain and the snow when there's nowhere to go

When you're feeling like a part of you is dying

And you're looking for the answer in her eyes

You think you're gonna break up Then she says she wants to make up

Ooh you made me love you

Ooh you've got a way

Ooh you had me crawling on the floor

A compromise would surely help the situation

Agree to disagree but disagree to part

When after all it's just a compromise Of the things we do for love

Oldies are juz great arent they.

2009-09-14T07:49:00.001-07:00

I AM AY OKAY LAHHH!!! WAHAHHAHAHAHA!!! :D

2009-09-13T16:29:00.000-07:00

i think i shld sign up for twitter instead with all this short posts.

did you know that...

2009-09-13T15:55:00.000-07:00

wake up to feeling everything is okay, for 3 seconds. real smooth ryan. good job. =.=

plus points of having a blog no one reads...

2009-09-13T06:14:00.001-07:00

in the end i can say absolutely what i want, how i want, when i want. there is no need for censorship, no need for hidden meanings, no need for filtering. i could emo my life away on this small getaway we call blogging.

but i still find it hard to.

life is one screwed up drama.

2009-09-13T04:58:00.000-07:00

the last roll of the dice, juz was not good enough. this is not the grand finale i expected. can i/should i/would i be stubborn at this point of time?

2009-09-09T08:03:00.000-07:00

if you only knew

as quoted from esther chan's pm.

2009-09-09T00:55:00.000-07:00

things are looking better. but there's always a but at the end of the sentence.

from the desk of my office...

2009-09-06T23:50:00.000-07:00

Michael Buble - Kissing a Fool

You are far,
When I could have been your star,
You listened to people,
Who scared you to death, and from my heart,
Strange that you were strong enough,
To even make a start,
But youll never find
Peace of mind,
Til you listen to your heart,

People,
You can never change the way they feel,
Better let them do just what they will,
For they will,
If you let them,
Steal your heart from you,
People,
Will always make a lover feel a fool,
But you knew I loved you,
We could have shown them all,
We should have seen love through,

Fooled me with the tears in your eyes,
Covered me with kisses and lies,
So goodbye,
But please dont take my heart,

You are far,
Im never gonna be your star,
Ill pick up the pieces
And mend my heart,
Maybe Ill be strong enough,
I dont know where to start,
But Ill never find
Peace of mind,
While I listen to my heart,

People,
You can never change the way they feel,
Better let them do just what they will,
For they will,
If you let them,
Steal your heart,

And people,
Will always make a lover feel a fool,
But you knew I loved you,
We could have shown them all,

But remember this,
Every other kiss,
That you ever give
Long as we both live
When you need the hand of another man,
One you really can surrender with,
I will wait for you,
Like I always do,
Theres something there,
That cant compare with any other,

You are far,
When I could have been your star,
You listened to people,
Who scared you to death, and from my heart,
Strange that I was wrong enough,
To think youd love me too.
I guess you were kissing a fool,
You must have been kissing a fool.

nice song. irritating somewhat though cos it has been ringing in my head since year 2 started.

Girl from Ipanema

2009-09-06T08:17:00.000-07:00

a night with bossa nova, a day with a ballad

plain and simple. i will sacrifice.

weekends...

2009-09-04T22:42:00.000-07:00

the funny thing about anticipating weekends is that people would usually have things to do that they are looking forward to it. well not for me, sat's are the most boring times of my life yet without them i would juz die.

reason: i can't really go out on sat's, and all that's left to "look forward" to is fencing training in the evening. whoopee~

Ystd was an interesting time, catching up with the other 4 people whom i hv yet to see ever since attachment started. lots of catching up and rubbish. haha. some people like junxiong don't seem to realise he shouldnt complain abt his work being boring when there are people "suffering" out there. hahaha still the same person that he is.

it shows that i'm really bored when i'm not typing interesting things but am instead talking abt random things under the sun, speaking of which i really need my sleep. i think i've insomnia or some random problem.

okok this is getting nowhere i should juz stop. peace.

update update update

2009-09-02T05:59:00.000-07:00

here's a brief run down of my life as an intern thus far. Ryan Lim is working at Chan & Chan Services Pte Ltd. a tax consultancy firm. what he does is very simple, follow instructions. he never got around to doing any thing he learnt in school. instead all he does is listen and do what the manager, a freaky old lady, says. Ryan thinks that he has lost all conversational skills whatsoever. all he talks to people now is about how boring/random/sad is his current attachment and hopes people understands for now. :D

current random things Ryan wishes to do:

1) walk, walk, walk, walk, walk, walk, walk, walk, walk, WALK. (rmb, vivo city to pukka still on ah~)

2) talk to people.

3) eat good food! (no more economic rice pls. :/)

4) get a new perfume

5) go to the library

6) watch a romantic movie

eh rachel is this more than a hundred words? i think it is leh. see i'm gonna dedicate this particular paragraph to you. hmm let's see. thanks for the random smses, i think i'd lose my sanity without my fone. you da bombz! :D

ok ryan think's he has written alot. 201 words! he wins! yay me! :P

it don't feel right...

2009-08-30T16:29:00.000-07:00

attachment officially starts in one and a half hours time. i have to say that there's this strange feeling in my gut. i hope its just anticipation/eagerness/excitedness. but then again, i don't know. dinner anyone? i really need to send my laptop for repair. =.=

this is a weird feeling.

the tongue is more dangerous than we think.

2009-08-26T06:47:00.000-07:00

ok i shall post a slightly longer post. exams are officially over, the 1st semester of my 2nd year in polytechnic has come to a close. go with me if you will on a little roadtrip back these past 6 months.

the most important thing i got from this semester: a new awesome bunch of friends! :D haha 80% of them will probably not read this anyways but you guys have been a real blast hanging around with. cheers to you guys.

also i must reiterate that every semester teaches you something new about life, and this semester is no different. facing all those funky challenges and times where things just seemed so screwed up, sucked ttm. but i don't think nothing positive came out of it. at least i've learnt to be a better person (somewhat.)

ok other than that its back to reality and on to attachment. yay "holidays". :/

2009-08-24T06:42:00.000-07:00

uh ohhhhhh~~

2009-08-22T01:06:00.001-07:00

Why am i always stuck in a predicament?

yet everytime i read...

2009-08-21T02:18:00.001-07:00

it makes my day easier to go by. :D

You Know Something's Not Right When...

2009-08-21T02:15:00.000-07:00

paranoia kicks in.

Speaking of Time...

2009-08-18T04:46:00.000-07:00

i just realised i have another 1month, 3weeks and 1 day to find my "date" for Elaine's party. Of all the themes one could choose for a party. :/

picture if you will me asking someone to be my "date" for a party that is centred around marriage. TOUGHIE! but its pretty interesting though so i'm sure it'll be fine. :D

Studying wise, not good. period.

Wrong Approach

2009-08-18T04:05:00.001-07:00

At the rate i'm studying, i won't make it in time for FIT and PMKT. 52 more hours till exams starts, what have YOU done?

2009-08-17T08:27:00.000-07:00

EPIC! :D

Carry You Home

2009-08-14T07:02:00.000-07:00

hahah honestly you guys are great friends. thanks for cheering me up. :D

Carry You Home - James Blunt

Trouble is her only friend and he's back again.

Makes her body older than it really is.
She says it's high time she went away,
No one's got much to say in this town.
Trouble is the only way is down.
Down, down.
As strong as you were, tender you go.
I'm watching you breathing for the last time.
A song for your heart, but when it is quiet,
I know what it means and I'll carry you home.
I'll carry you home.
If she had wings she would fly away,
And another day God will give her some.
Trouble is the only way is down.
Down, down.
As strong as you were, tender you go.
I'm watching you breathing for the last time.
A song for your heart, but when it is quiet,
I know what it means and I'll carry you home.
I'll carry you home.
And they were all born pretty in New York City tonight,
And someone's little girl was taken from the world tonight,
Under the Stars and Stripes.
As strong as you were, tender you go.
I'm watching you breathing for the last time.
A song for your heart, but when it is quiet,
I know what it means and I'll carry you home.
I'll carry you home.

i know it's an old song. but who said songs had to be new to mean anything to me. :D

Adept at Procrastination

2009-08-12T16:45:00.000-07:00

Ryan here again, as you can well see the length between the two posts takes about 6 days. not that i do not have stuff to talk about, i'm just procrastinating. that's what i do best anyhow innit.

just something random: did you know that the ku klux klan or KKK share much similarities to real-estate agents? that's the chapter i'm on now in freakonomics, a pretty old best seller on "the hidden side of everything".

why can't people appreciate trivia? or at least i've yet to meet more than a handful in my life.

but whatever the case, its probably lethargy that's getting to my head these few days. i really do need a vacation or some getaway after the exams but unfortunately for someone like me, i have attachments. how quaint. 2 months of good, solid holidays just gone like that. with earning minimal wage, no leave allowed and to put the icing on the cake i'm gonna be doing accounting. haha reading this i realised i've probably caught JUNXIONG's disease of whining. oh nooo.

so that's basically it so far.

are there emoticons on blogspot. =.=

All Over Again

2009-08-07T18:11:00.000-07:00

This is take 2 of Ryan's attempt at keeping a blog. all thanks to SOMEONE who has been NAGGING at me to get another one when the old xanga one was dead. :D doubt i would update this very often so let’s see how long this blog will last for.

now this begets a very important question.

what in the world do i blog about?

my life is most definitely not the most interesting of sorts, i doubt how anyone would find me playing at the playground while waiting for them karaoke people to pay up anywhere near interesting. no i did not play at the playground, i was just there. would it be better if i'd just crap about every single thing that I dislike or like. nahh its not me.

i conclude that i will just talk about happenings that occur around me. i would not care less if you find it suited to your palate or not. a blog is an open "personal" space anyhow.

so let's go.

and thank's for sticking through me being so particular with what skins to use, name of the blog etc. it was your idea anyhow. :D